Dragonlair

Food Hunting in the dark

yesteday was suppose to be a fun gathering of L6S1 and other friends at Kuching Festival. Unfortunately, blackout happened to strike the whole Kuching (actually not only in Kch, but other town as well).

Miss ko asked us to cancelled of the gathering and postpone it to next week as it was very dangerous to be in the dark where pickpocket was everywhere (a lot of people have complainted to the police). when we wanna inform the others, they had arrived already and they wanna continue the plan.

so, we hunt for food in the dark, hunt for place to sit in darkness. it's the first time in my life to be in a crowded place with no light and hunting for food. it's was sooo dark that we can't even recognise each other. we hold each other shoulder and scream "WAIT" so that we won't get lose and be off somewhere alone. it's fun and scary at the same time as we can't see everyone clearly, we might bumped into some pickpocket or knocked into someone (which i nearly do so).

the blackout last for hours (i lost count of time as i was busying buying lots of food - two hands full of it..haha). although it's dark n hot there was still a lot a lot a lot of ppl at Kuching Festival food fair.

farewell party

today, we organised a farewell party just for jaime (she's leaving us for logistics soon). we set her up by saying there's extra class (thanks to miss ko) and we wanna have a party for miss ko as it's her birthday..haha..n she believe..

we make it as a maggie cup party..yahoo..feels like going back to camp again..haha..
right after the school is over, very each of us line up and take hot water for our maggie cup.. n miss ko say we looks like maggie parade.

it's fun and everyone is happy. although me n jaime are the only tj-an there, but we cn get a long very well wit the bk1-an. they are all frenly. nv regret enter tat class as L6s1 rawks!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Busy days...

it's been fourth week since i enter form6. it's getting harder and hard, busier and busier day after day, in my school, we really have to work hard to gain extra curricular marks - really really hard. everyone was trying to get post or rank in clubs.

form6 is really a challenge for me. i have to divide my time wisely for both my studies, tuitions and my curricular activities, not to forget extra class (especially chemistry).

what i like about my school is, we have a form6 clubs run by ourselves. all form6 will automatically enter this club. it is called as Pertenam. with this club, we can organise activities just for us and contribute to the school as well (as we form6 will do majority of the things - including the one that supposed to be done by teachers).

no matter what, studies come first. so ppl, make sure that u divide ur time wise enough so that u won't neglect any part.

What choice we have?

what choice do i have? i don't have any choice to choose. Entering form 6 is the only way to further my studies. although form6 was not as bad as what other people say (like what i'vw said in my previous blog) but if there's other alternative, sure i wanna go straight to what i wanna be. i wanna study civil engineering or quantity surveyor. just because i cn't gt any scholarships, i have no choice but entering form6. why i can't get any scholarships with my results i have no idea. i got straight A's (7a1, 4a2) but din manage to gt any scholarships. Mayb luck's not by my side.

i've decided, if i still cn't manage to gt the appeal scholarships, i'm gonna study really really hard (maybe will become crazy, i also dun noe..hard to predict) and try gt 4 flat. just hopefully, with this results in STPM, i manage to get scholarships or get the course n local university i want. Hopefully........

Form Six..hell or heaven?

many people think that entering Form six is just like entering hell. well, it's quite true. in Form six, there's no longer honey-moon mood. you have to struggle double hard and crack your head  to do well in it. for one and a half year, your life is just like hell and miserable. but, do you ever think of the consequences or benefits after the suffering? once you do well in STPM, when you enter university to get your degree, your life well be soO much easier as you actually had a very good foundation in your STPM. why don't suffer first and enjoy in university later.

of course, if you had other choice, you're sure not to study form6 - the same goes to me - but, what if you don't really know what you wanna be? How if you're taking an a-lvl course or foundation and then you found out that you don't like the course you're taking? it's a waste of time and money as well. so, another benefit of form 6 is that you will have one and a half year to think carefully what you want in future.

so people, don't think too negatively when you're not accepted in matrix or any other scholarships etc as form6 is a good thing too. it's cheap for sure and you still have a year and a half to enjoy school life before you really left it forever. Form6 rawkss!

Dorm 5 Charlie..

Wirawati Charlie Company is divided into four dorms - l5, l6 and p5, p6. i lived in P5, the best dorm on earth..haha..

we gave our dorm a name - Charlie's Angel. inside, there are 23 people with 6 chinese, 11 malays and 6 dayaks. all coming from different states. let me introduce u one by one.

Zatul (ketua dorm) - she's a skinny kch malay gals n like to say "tutup pintu!" as her bed is the closest to the door. her parents are very generous. whenever there's family day, her parents will bring food such as KFC and chicken rice for us (the whole dorm!) she loves her HP very much and own a very very good HP and also an Ipod.

Dynaz - she's from KL. a very cute and funny gal. likes to ponteng and sleeps. sometimes didn't eat dinner just because wanna sleep. she had found her other part of her life and i'm kinda jealous of her as she's really xin fu.

shasha - another Kch gal. very pretty and close frens of zatul. likes to voice out what she think is nt right.

aben - she's a very shy dayak gal. whenever she wants something, she'll just look at u and smile (sometimes laugh). she's very cute tough n owes give out "gases". i gave her a nickname Queen Of Kentut..hahaha... she seldom talks at the begining but then in the end me n her become close as she's my neighbour..^^

wanie - cute Kl gal with stunning eyes. she loves to sleep and eira always have to wake her up several times before she really get up and prepare to  go down to eat or activities. she always hit wen wen's butt and vice versa..haha

loni - a tall and slim dayak gal. she's active and quiet. she hurt her chin one day (terkoyak..OMG! so scary). too bad i cn't accompany her as i have to lead our company in PT pagi. i'm just so jealous of her figure as she's soooo slim n prefect!

stephanie - a cute cute KL chinese gal. she never get dark! although all of us panggang under the same sun at the same rate and time but she just cn't get dark. all she get is only red colour on her cheeks. this make her cuter..haha..she's a very nice person and always share what she have. she's one of my best friends in this camp. she's very caring too and have a lot of admirer.she have a CJ7 that always hilang (we took it and hide from her..wahahaha)

Ain - doraemon of P5. she's the youngest of all (in terms of month) and act very childish. she's coming from KL too and went back to KL to study matrix in n9. haiz..miss her soo much. she always cheer me up with her childish act such as "angugu", "uh chak", etc. she loves to eat too..

long huey - owner of penyu hijau. she even have a song for it. she's a spectacled kch gal and a bit sot sot. she can make up songs a a few second but all concerning about FOOD only. she loves the food here especially ayam masak merah. she loves teh susu also and can drink a lot of glass. o ya, forgot to say that she's from kch. she's a comp freaks and wanna be a programmer in future. she's a straighfoward person and very caring towards me. she take really good care of me when i hurt me leg. i owe her that..she loves to make cold jokes too~

helen - a small and active dayak gal with a very nice curly hair. loves to sing with flora. she have a beautiful big eyes and dark skin. she's very caring especially when one of our dorm-mate sick.

flora - a plumpy and fair dayak gal. she have a powerful voice and always sing with helen. she's very cute and whenever goes wrong she will definitely say 'salahkan najib".

yung - a spectacle dayak girl who loves to berpura-pura merajuk. whenever she wanna do so, she will say "aku merajuk". she's very friendly and she's our hairstylist - she can braid our hair nicely (in a few days time, it become a trend in KPP among gals).

amirah - she's a sporting selangor gal. she's cool and loves to say "haiya!" or calling people name "wen wen na!" or "ah huey ar!" without her, our dorm are so damn quiet. she dare to try out everything and straighfoward whenever she's nt satisfied. when one of us in trouble, she's the first to support us.

wen wen - Garfield of P5 from KL. she didn't realise she looks like one until she come here and receive the tiltle.haha..she's quite tall with big eyes. she's caring too and a bit sot sot. she can laugh non-stop suddenly before she cn finish off her story and loves to eat too. one day, we went to weight our weight and hers increase, she dun believe it and say 'tak mungkin. mesin itu rosak' and run off. she's very cute and loves to make jokes.

farina - she's super quiet and shy kch gal. even teacher didn't realise her present until the 4 weeks. but she's friendly and funny when you get to know her..

lin wei - the most quiet gal in the dorm. i used 4 - 5 weeks just to talk to her and become close to her! she seldom smile and talk to people she do not know. but when we become close, she's really cute actually. she;s the kinda person who dun like to waste time. there one day she say 'i'll go back to dorm and find something to wash instead of wasting time sitting in the dewan doing notihing'. she's one of our alarm clock too as she wake up earlier than other people. she's a bit slow in movement things such as poco poco dance. she's a very smart gal and tak puas hati selagi she din hold the M16 gun - that's the reason why she stay in the camp instead of going back for form6.

evy - charlie's org kuat. she's very active and strong but unfortunately she had a weird sickness where by she'll get body cramp (i mean whole body cramp) whenever she do harsh activities such as kembara halangan and volley ball. she's very cute and friendly. her eyes are big and her smile is very warming.

ina - a small kch malay gals. she looks really cute when she wear a blue samfoo shirt for dikir barat. her size make her doesn;t look like a 18 year old kid. she looks much more younger, damn! she's naughty and always main kerja kerja with nadya.

eira - a skinny Kl gal. she never get fat at all although she eats a lot. she's one of the early birds and wake people up for PT pagi. her voice is very suitable in giving command in marching but she don't wanna become ketua..haiz..too bad.

hui nei - a kch chinese gal who lives so far away from Kch..haiz. she like to take pic but don;t know hw to gt it as her HP is normal HP without camera and she didn't bring any camera. she's sensitive and caring.

aleeya - a very tall KL malay gal. she's cute and keanak-anakan. she's very skinny although she eats maggie almost everyday with her maggie gang - zatul, shasha and dynaz. she's straight forward and is the kinda gal u dun wanna mess with too.

nadya - a very cute malay gal and very very childish too. same as ina, her size is small and make her looks younger than her age. she's very close to our warden - cikgu norm. she's generous as well because part our dorm decoration is using her own money.

that's the member of P5..P5 rawks..(n.n)

Kem Puncak Permai, Tondong, Bau~

when i enter the National Service camp in Tondong, Bau on the 18 March 2008, i can't get use to it at first. time drag on so slow - as slow as snail. the food there sucks and i can't manage my life (this is the first time i left my family and have to live on my own). although i have friends in the same camp with me but we're separated when they divided all of us into four groups. mine is in C company. then i meet with new friends who are very very crazy and we get a long very well.

time past by. with me realising it time goes by very quickly the moment our training starts. we have class in the morning and physical activities in the afternoon such as flying fox (i don;t have the chance to play it as i hurt my leg when it's out company's turn to play). then during the night, we have videos to watch or we just sit there and talk while waiting for them to announce tomorrow's activities.

our meal time is fixed - breakfast at 7am, tea break at 10am, lunch at 12pm, tea break at 4pm, dinner at 6pm and supper around 10pm. all the lights will be close at 11pm and there will be no movement. we at our meals at Dewan Jati Perkasa (we do a lot of activities there as well besides eating). beside the dewan is a lake - that's what they call it but i think it looks like a huge pond - with a lot of fish inside it. we used to feed the fishes with bread in morning especially saturday as we don;t have any activities.

now, our dorm (P5) is the best dorm ever. living inside are 23 different races and coming from different states. but we still can live together harmoniously and just like  a big family. we have a bed and a very very small locker to put our things. there are 16 dorms in the camp - 8 gals dorm and 8 boys dorm, each company have two dorms. each dorm will have their own bath rooms but other dorms will still come over to our bath room as theirs short of water (we used to face this pro..haha) i'll tell u guys about my dorm-mates in details soon..^^

every week we will be spot-check layout. the disciplinary board will check every dorm to make sure the layout is clean and organise. if nt, tsunami will happen (the beds that is untidy will be overturned). this will cause our company to loss marks (merit demerit systems). we're given 100 000 merit points int he beginning and the only way to gain more marks is by winning all the games organised, decorate our dorms and do something that pleased the commander such as come early in every activities. at the end of the training, which company's marks is the highest will win the  best company.

without realising it, i get used to the life in the camp and now, when i come back here i start to miss it. it's the best moments of my life ever. it's not as scary as what you guys thought. it's really fun. i'll never forget bout it. never ever....

NS

tomorrow i'll be off to bau for my NS training. i feel reli xcited and at the same times, i dun reli wanna go. but what i cn do?? i still have to go. i'll miss my family and my frens here. i cn't imagine we lost contacts in three months time - without knowing what's going on in each others life. Although i know that we could call each other but, it's going to be very very very hard. we can't hang out anymore and what i fear the most is, when i come back, my frens already gone somewhere to further their studies.

SPM results had just come out last week. From that particular days onwards i know that all of us will go on with out own life and path chosen by ourselves. it will be very hard to hang out as all of us will busy with our new lifestyle. i just hope that, we will still remember each other and come out to have a cup of coffee or tea someday.

dissapointment..we have them everyday

this few days, i dun noe why i feel like a butterfly who lost one of it's wing, so hopeless and down. darkness fall n surround me making my life so dull and tiring. now i feel like so sick of all the things happened around me, i wish i can just sleep on forever and don't have to think, rest as peacefully as i can.

it's a fact that, sometimes, no matter how sincere or how much you put an afford on something or someone, you'll never get back what u want or expected from that person. although we know very well that we won't get it but still we put a thousand hope on it.

how much i wish i can go to seaside right now, to clear off all the things in my mind and think nothing but only the starry sky and the breeze from the sea. sometimes i really wish i can get out from the world. but the fact is, i can't. i have to be here and face the problem no matter i want it or not.

my birthday is coming soon, in two days time. i know that i will not get what i xpected from someone i really care about, but yet, i still put hope on it. i don't know why.

what i have is something that u'll never have

why do some people can be very rich, some can be very poor? why some can be very pretty, and some are nt so preferable by others? WHY?
Some human in this world loves to compete or try so hard to change themselves into other people. for example, he or she was not so good-looking and so he or she went on a dead plastic surgery just to make their face pretty enough to gain attention from someone they admired.
why do we have to do this??? i just don't understand. for me, this is wat i am. me being me. whatever people say about me, this is still me. i admit tat i'm nt tat attractive (pretty whatsoever) but i'm really happy with myself. i've gt cool frens, loving family and knowledge that i can be proud of. people, wake up. it's nt necessary for us to change just because of some idiots but change according to situations. sometimes, it's just nt worth it for us to change ourselves. the best is still be ourselves.

there's one gal who loves to compete wit me (i dun noe why). whenever i hav something new, she also wanted one. whenever there's new fashion, she trey to proved tat she's more fashionable and i'm nt. she owes try to prove that she's better than me in everything. but she might hav all those things,but there's one thing that she'll never have: love from a true fren. i have two frens who are just like my sisters and i love them very much and i know they love me too. this is the thing tat she never ever will have. i dun care hw fashionable u are, hw advanced u are or hw pretty u become (so not), i just wan u to know tat, u will never hav something as precious as friendships, a true friendships. mark my word, dude.